Almost (If I Get There I'd Find That I'd Change My Mind )

I can't remember what prompted it, but a whole host of memories from secondary school flooded my head yesterday evening - probably another wish to return to the security of compulsory education in light of my increasing irritation with college.

Low 1/4: Parenthood

I've often thought of myself as having a strong paternal instinct. I'd rather not view myself as subject to biological drives, nor do I wish to believe it's a big egotrip to have a mini version of yourself. Regardless, there's something that makes me want to have a child... I think the video for Will Smith's Just the Two of Us brough it on. That's in an ideal and lovely world. We don't live in that world. I know I hate being born into this world, and I deeply resent being on a planet in which I have to prostitute myself to capitalists to stay alive. How can I possibly introduce a child to a planet which has received hardly any praise from my own blog?

Low 3/4: Animal Farm, Calling

I have an irrational wish to shoot all those who defend this cattle-market economy in all its degrading splendour - namely, the Neo-liberal asinine pricks that are my parents and their generation.

It was their generation that saw 2001 in the cinemas, yet this generation was condemned to a year and resulting decade that never achieved anything near its cinematic namesake. I can't say I didn't enjoy watching the live deaths of 10,000 Americans on TV (as was the figure on the day), but now I think it was awful - not that, the bit where American Imperialism rose again.

Low 2/4: Planet

The people you can see walking down the street are not looking up into the sky and wondering who is out there - instead, they mindlessly watch people with the intelligence of cockroaches on empty-content TV. You can travel 13,700,000,000 Light Years in all directions*, yet we (and by we, I mean Americans) haven't been to the Moon since December 1972. It's only 3 Light Seconds away (384,400 km on average). What was done in the meantime? We built Concorde. Then we scrapped Concorde. Humanity moves forwards. Humanity moves backwards. Politicians build more bridges.

Like a can of sugar-water Coke®, humans arrived and unscrewed the cap on the equilibrium. At this moment , I would truly welcome this species' extinction - the only tragedy would be if the means resulted in the wipeout of the less destructive species.

*The distance to the edge of observable space. Anything beyond that is irrelevant to us
Based on barely-legible depressed rants written in the middle of the night on 19/01/06

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